[ There's the momentary relief of Roland seemingly having given up on his quest to find - and potentially fight - Reno right then and there.
Though it comes at a cost, and Inigo is very much aware of what that cost is. Though he knows Roland wouldn't find him pathetic for thinking that way about himself - he's thankfully grown past that fear, at least - he still doesn't want the other to feel bad for him. ]
No.. [ So the word rolls across his lips almost instinctively as an answer. Quickly. He takes a step back from Roland - almost bumping against the toilet as he does so - and forces himself with all his might to smile. ]
No, it's nothing.. that bad. Nothing you have to worry about. [ He's lying through his teeth, and he's not sure he can get away with this one, considering the severity of what he just said. But he has to at least try and downplay it. Roland must have enough worries on his mind. Inigo can't allow himself to be so many of them.
He just has to try and minimize himself as usually. ]
I mean-- it's not even that I think it's all true! He said I was unloved, and I told him that wasn't true. I know people here care for me. [ That much is true.
But being spineless, begging for scraps, being hard to love.. Those are all true, Inigo thinks. But maybe if he puts emphasis on the one thing he knows Reno to be wrong about, he can sweep all of the things he does believe under the carpet, out of Roland's sight. ] There's just a few things I still worry about.. But it's nothing big!
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Though it comes at a cost, and Inigo is very much aware of what that cost is. Though he knows Roland wouldn't find him pathetic for thinking that way about himself - he's thankfully grown past that fear, at least - he still doesn't want the other to feel bad for him. ]
No.. [ So the word rolls across his lips almost instinctively as an answer. Quickly. He takes a step back from Roland - almost bumping against the toilet as he does so - and forces himself with all his might to smile. ]
No, it's nothing.. that bad. Nothing you have to worry about. [ He's lying through his teeth, and he's not sure he can get away with this one, considering the severity of what he just said. But he has to at least try and downplay it. Roland must have enough worries on his mind. Inigo can't allow himself to be so many of them.
He just has to try and minimize himself as usually. ]
I mean-- it's not even that I think it's all true! He said I was unloved, and I told him that wasn't true. I know people here care for me. [ That much is true.
But being spineless, begging for scraps, being hard to love.. Those are all true, Inigo thinks. But maybe if he puts emphasis on the one thing he knows Reno to be wrong about, he can sweep all of the things he does believe under the carpet, out of Roland's sight. ] There's just a few things I still worry about.. But it's nothing big!